Anxiety and depression is usually not something people like to talk about. I think it is a good feeling to know that there are others out there experiencing the same things and that there is someone you can talk to and not seem crazy if need be. I would love to help others going through what I was. Mine was a lonely journey but yours doesn’t have to be!
I have been experiencing anxiety since about 11 years old. It was really really bad back then and I missed out on a lot of cool experiences because of it. It was something I didn’t really talk about with others but then again I didn’t really have anyone to talk to. My anxiety caused me to withdraw from any type of social situations and my parents placed me in a few different inpatient mental health facilities which made things worse for me.
I still suffer from anxiety but it is more of a generalized anxiety disorder. I still hate social situations but I can usually deal with them. The experience of a full blown panic attack is rare but occasionally still happens. I am able to control them pretty well when they do occur. My anxiety was once so bad I was even diagnosed with agoraphobia because I became afraid to even leave my house. I couldn’t even walk to the mailbox.
Essential oils have been such a blessing to me in helping me to support hormonal and emotional balance and relaxation. I used to be on a cocktail of different medications for anxiety/panic, depression and depersonalization disorder. I am happy to say I have not touched an anti-anxiety or depression medication in over 10 years. I would say that desensitization, meditation and essential oils have been the key to my dramatic improvement.
I came to a point where I was just so tired of being on medications and I felt I had no control over my body or my life. I started forcing myself to get in the car and drive while allowing myself to pull over and practice my breathing techniques then continue to drive again. At first this took a very long time. I would say a month to even get myself to drive around the block. Then I made myself eat in the food court at the mall down the street from my house. Then go to a dark noisy restaurant and finish eating a meal. It was such a long process but so totally worth it. I confronted my anxiety head on and slowly beat it!
What helped me the most to overcome my anxiety:
- Meditation/guided visualization
- Relaxation techniques
- Positive affirmation
- Chakra balancing
- Aromatherapy (diffusing)
Books I recommend reading are Creative Visualization and Don’t Panic.
For Aromatherapy I started using doTERRA’s essential oils and feel that it has helped me tremendously. If you are interested to try it for yourself I have listed some oils below. These particular oils have worked the best for me, applied topically or diffused, helping me to deal with my anxiety and depression.
- Serenity (for relaxation and insomnia)
- Balance (supports hormonal balance)
- Lavender (relaxation and sooooooo much more. Read this!)
- Roman Chamomile (calming and relaxation)
- Citrus Bliss (uplifting and cheerful blend that smells like orange creamsicles, I love that smell!!!!!!!)
I recommend using doTERRA’s essential oils because of their potency and purity. doTERRA oils are the only ones that I feel safe and confident using and recommending to others. If you would like to order any of these essential oils or essential oil blends please go here and if you order a kit from me I will send you some free goodies. If you have any questions about essential oils or anxiety please use the contact page or send me an email directly at email@example.com
Monday was my first day back to work after having my baby. I have not been very happy about it! It was more of a necessity instead of a choice since my ex-husband decided he had more important things to do instead of paying child support. Since he was illegal it was easy for him to go back to Mexico and decide to forget about paying for the 4 kids that depended on his financial support. Oh well… whatever! I just had a baby (from current husband) and was planning on staying home with her. I was expecting to be next to her all day everyday. I have been cloth diapering her and exclusively breastfeeding her because I felt that was best for her and the environment. I took my children out of the public school system because I felt it was time for me to step up to the plate to educate and raise my children in a way that wasn’t available to them in government run schools. I wanted what was best for my kids but since my life took a turn for the worse I decided to suck it up and go back to work.
My boss has been asking for me to come back since I’ve had the baby. I had quit a few weeks back because I decided that my family had to come first and it was best if I stayed home with my children and new baby but things have changed. I had loved working with him and for that particular company that my husband also works at which made the transition a bit easier. Since my decision to go back to work I have been crying myself to sleep every night and started having these stupid anxiety attacks again but since it was only part-time it couldn’t be that bad right?! Anyways, I was scanning some paperwork today and realized that last weeks safety meeting was on lead poisoning. WTF! I could be exposing myself and my family to lead?! I guess I never really thought about it before.
I work at an engineering/construction company. I am a project assistant for the best project manager at our company. My department manufactures big airplane stands. I work upstairs but out of my office windows I am able to see everything that goes on downstairs. I see the guys cutting, drilling and welding all day long. I never thought that this could be a source of lead poisoning! Being exposed to the dust in the air from the guys welding never passed my mind. Feeding my baby breast milk that could possibly contain an unhealthy amount of lead and putting lead dust into our bed where my baby and I sleep never crossed my mind.
I am totally freaking out about this! I just bought a really nice breast pump so that I could still be able to pump milk so my baby wouldn’t have to touch formula. My manager agreed to let me work part-time so I wouldn’t be apart from my baby for too long. I begged my older children to help watch the baby so we wouldn’t have to put her into daycare but I don’t know if it is worth it!
I have been doing everything humanly possible to rid my home of toxins, educate and raise my children how I feel best, register for a few more college courses online to work towards my bachelors degree and get my doTERRA business up and running. Now I feel like I have just been sucker punched by a complete psychopath called “crappy reality”. I was not planning on no child support. I was not planning on having to leave my baby and go back to work. I was not planning on my anxiety coming back. I was not planning on being exposed to lead at work.
So now the question is WTF do I do! Well I have no clue. I can quit my job but my husband doesn’t make enough money to pay our bills. I can start going door to door begging people to buy essential oils from me because I am desperate (maybe that would kick start my business) HA! I could find a craft that I’m way good at and take my butt to the farmers market during the weekends and pray that I can actually sell something.
Well for now I am going to go rub some Serenity oil on my feet and cry myself back to sleep. In the morning I will wake up and leave my baby with my older daughter so I can go to work. I will for sure be using my Serenity and Balance essential oils to help me get through the day! I will wear my fake smile, I will pump my milk, I will go to my meetings, I will pray that my brain doesn’t decide switch to full blown panic attack mode just because it feels like it and before I know it I will be back home. When I get back home my reality will be waiting for me to face it one on one and I will have some major thinking and decision making to do!!!
So, you are ready to make a change. You want to live healthier. You want to set an example for your family. Where do you start? Well, it just depends on where you are at this moment in your life. Are you focusing on your diet, exercise, ridding your homes of toxins? I can not tell you to focus on one particular area. All I can do is tell you what I have done and am doing.
What I felt most compelled to start was getting rid of all GMOs (genetically modified organisms) on my grocery list. First it was just foods on the dirty dozen such as berries and fruit with skins that we eat. Now I have slowly started buying all my fruits and veggies non-GMO. I stay away from corn products and soy because these are almost always GMO (in America).
I am now working on ridding my home of chemicals. I just recently started getting into the nitty gritty of essential oils and I working on becoming a certified aromatherapist. I love what they have done for my family and feel so strongly about them that I decided to start my own doTERRA business so I can share them with others. I found out that I could pretty much replace any cleaning product in my home with some castile soap and essential oil mixture. This has been the funnest thing. Me and the kids get together and look up different recipes and get to try them out together. We have started with laundry detergent (not only non-toxic but has been good with the cloth diapers). We made wool dryer balls for the dryer instead of using dryer sheets. We went on to hand soap, dishwashing soap, wood polisher, floor cleaner and all purpose cleaning spray.
As for the beauty department essential oils have been the key here too. We have been trying out some shampoo and conditioner recipes but have not found one that makes everyone happy quite yet. We will continue working on body scrubs, body washes, lotions and shampoos. I desperately need to find a deodorant recipe! After investigating what types of chemicals are in deodorants I completely stopped using them! No way will I ever put any of that under my arms again!!! After doing some research my daughter made herself a face wash that works great for her and has cleared up her face! Seems like my kids are getting the hang of this natural living thing too!
There is just so much to do and with a big family it seems like it’s an extra slow journey (especially in the diet area). With the new homeschooling year starting this week for the kids and me starting a part-time job next week this is going to be tough but family depends on me to give them a healthy home. It is possible to take control of your life, home and wellness. I hope my journey will compel you to start your own!
So I found a homemade dishwashing detergent recipe and tweaked it a little. So far so good. I think I really like it! I really like the feel of this on my hands and seems to be doing a great job on cleaning the dishes too. It is not as tough on grease as my store bought detergent but I think I will just work on perfecting my recipe. So far he is what I have…
Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!
Homemade Dishwashing (not dishwasher) Detergent
- 2 cups of hot water
- 1 TBSP of Arm & Hammer Super Washing Soda
- 1/2 cup of liquid castile soap
- 1 TBSP of white vinegar
- Essential Oil ( I used a few drops of lemon and maleleuca from doTERRA)
- 1 TBSP of vegetable glycerin
- Dissolve the washing soda into the hot water
- Add the vinegar, essential oils and glycerin to the mix
- Lastly add the castile liquid soap (make sure to do this last so you don’t get a bubbly mess!)
- Mix up and pour into a cleaned out old store bought dishwashing detergent container or put into a new container (preferably glass)
I had so much zucchini and squash that I wasn’t quite sure what to do with them all. I hag any idea to make a zucchini version of eggplant parmesan and it was awesome! Everyone wanted seconds and thirds!
I still have a bunch of squash and zucchini I need to figure out what to do with. Any suggestions???
So I never paid much attention to laundry detergent besides if I liked the smell or not. After reading the ratings of my favorite laundry detergents on ewg.org I’ve realized laundry detergent is another poison in my home I need to get rid of! I used to make my own powdered detergent for cloth diapers but I’ve never made liquid so after doing some research I found this recipe:
- 2 gal bucket
- 2 gal of water
- 1/2 cup of super washing soda
- 1/2 cup of baking soda
- 3/4 cup of castile soap
- * your favorite essential oil about 30 – 40 drops (if the castile soap is unscented)
- a long wooden or metal spoon for stiring ingredients
*I only use doTERRA oils (If you have any questions, would like to sign up for a wholesale membership, or just purchase a few please contact me!) or go to here.
- add the 1/2 cup of super washing soda into the bucket and add a little bit of hot tap water (enough to be able to dissolve the super washing soda in)
- add the 1/2 cup of baking soda and mix until dissolved
- add your 2 gal of water and stir until you get everything dissolved pretty well.
- finally add the 3/4 cup of castile soap and 30 – 40 drops of essential oils you are going to add.
* If you add the castile soap before the water it will be too bubbly to work with.
Directions for use: add 1/3 cup per load and enjoy your non-toxic laundry detergent!
Making some rose water today from some of the fresh roses in the backyard. There are so many benefits of rose water for the skin and body. I’m going to put my rose water in a spray bottle and use it for my face. Rose water has anti-inflammatory properties that can help reduce the redness of irritated skin, get rid of acne, dermatitis and eczema. It is a great cleanser and aids in removing oil and dirt accumulated in clogged pores”, says Dr. Deepali Bhardwaj, Skincare Expert.
I used a blend of about a tablespoon of coconut oil mixed with 2 drops of lavender and 1 drop of peppermint oil and applied it to the bottom of my baby’s feet. I decided to try this after giving her some Tylenol throughout the night and she was still super hot and grumpy in the morning. When she woke up I gave her another dose of Tylenol and then applied this mixture to her feet. I will be giving her the Tylenol (if needed) and applying this mixture to her feet for the rest of the day. I am finding these essential oils to be the best investment I have ever made! There are so many different uses and benefits of having them!!!
Follow me on my healthy living and home transformation journey. Have you ever wanted to provide a less toxic environment for your family? Have you ever thought about what types of chemicals you are using daily in your beauty and household products? Have you recently looked up any of the ingredients that are in the foods you consume on a daily basis? Are you tired of paying an outrageous amount of money on stuff you know you could easily make at home? Would you like to have more time to spend with your family?
Together lets work on making our lives and homes healthier!